today’s shooting on campus made me think of a lot of things.
for one, the other members of my cohort and I were in the middle of giving presentations on our research when the first alert came. as more alerts came, we notified our professor, who told us to continue with the presentations because it was “better to focus on something positive” and “be productive”.
as calls and texts started coming in, she told us to pay attention to the presenter please.
learning number 1: when crisis is happening, please acknowledge that safety is more important than school.
later when myself and another student called the chair of the program and told her about how our professor handled or didn’t handle the situation, we were told it wasn’t a valid concern, her concluding remark: “you could have died, but you didn’t die so then you’re fine”.
ironic how two of the least empathetic professors happen to be in the doctoral program of the social welfare department.
the shooting happened around 10AM, but we were under lock-down until 12:30PM. during this time, we were getting different updates on what was happening through twitter, texts, new sources and word of mouth from other people in the building. we could hear helicopters, we saw photos of police – we were all paranoid, at times being told there were up to 4 active shooters in different parts of campus, including north campus- where I was. At one point there was news that the shooter was armed with an assault rifle.
we were told of this 6 foot white male shooter being spot at different places and in this scenario, if we were in a state that passed concealed carry laws, we would probably have student vigilantes walking around wreaking havoc, targeting students who looked suspicious.
in the end, we found out that the shooting that occurred at 10AM was the only shooting and led to the death of a professor and a suicide. but the feeling of that frenzied paranoid lingers.
and the tragedy that leaves a professor dead is a mark that is engraved on our campus forever.