this is one of those days where, submerged in feelings, i just want to disappear. not die, disappear.
to get away from past and present relationship baggage and get away from sleeplessness, get away from the aftermath of flawed choices. get away from the 9-5 work trap. get away from the social justice issues that beg a different reworking of our systems. get away from meeting expectations, not meeting expectations. get away from confusion, complexity, and the absence of clarity.
away. from. here.
God in this season of lent, how do i give up the part of myself that doesn’t want to deal with the baggage? i feel stuck and my solution is to disappear. what’s yours?
Out of Darkness 